Who are Brett Kavanaugh's parents

Washington. "I don't really want to be here. And I'm also very scared," said Christine Blasey Ford before the Judiciary Committee of the US Senate. But "I think it's my civic duty," she continues, her voice trembling. "I'm here because of the boy who sexually assaulted me."

Ford, a professor of psychology at Palo Alto University, was invited by the US Senate to testify about her known allegations against Brett Kavanaugh. Because this has been nominated by US President Donald Trump for a judge's office on the Supreme Court. And Blasey Ford has had experiences with Kavanaugh that would make him unsustainable for such a high morally demanding position. Two other women have now come forward with allegations against Kavanaugh - but their experiences, as the committee made clear on Thursday, are not the subject of the hearing.

Ford described her summers to the committee as a teenager in Maryland, a girl's high school student who, like many others, met boys from boys' high schools at various parties. She was then, at the age of 15, loosely friends with a classmate of Brett Kavanaugh, who was then 17 years old. But she and Kavanaugh knew each other by sight.

At an impromptu party where probably no more than ten teenagers have gathered in a "storm-free" house. Brett Kavanaugh and his friend Mark Judge were already extremely drunk when they came, says Ford. And when she broke away from the group to go to the toilet on another floor, she was pushed from the back into a bedroom The door was locked, the music turned up. Kavanaugh weighed down her, tried to rip her clothes off, and covered her mouth as she yelled for help. "That scared me the most: That Brett would accidentally kill me because I couldn't breathe." When Kavanaugh's friend jumped on the bed, all three fell, Ford escaped and barricaded himself at the toilet. She heard the two teenagers stumble down the stairs, laughing.

"The details are engraved in my memory"

"I can't remember anything about that night," explains Ford. "But the details of why I'm testifying today are engraved in my mind and have brought me home all my life."

Ford also anticipated the allegations as to why she didn't say anything sooner. Back then, around the summer of 1982. "I was ashamed. I didn't want to tell my parents that I drink beer with boys without supervision."

Later, but long before Kavanaugh's speech was for the Supreme Court, she finally told a therapist about it. And when she learned in early summer that Kavanaugh was on the short list of candidates for the Supreme Court, she felt that she had to do something. "But I didn't know how." She tried to get in touch with the political representative in her district. She gave the Washington Post an anonymous tip. But nothing happened. Then Kavanaugh was suddenly the official candidate for the Supreme Court. And only then, at the end of July, did the politician's office report back. She in turn advised her to write a letter to her - Californian - Senator Dianne Feinstein. She did so, asking for confidentiality.

"Everything I feared has come true"

"My fear of being exposed in public increased daily." She also felt that her single voice wasn't enough to sway Kavanaugh's nomination. So she decided to be silent.

But that was no longer possible. Because your letter was circulating in journalists' circles. Reporters besieged Ford, came to her home, asked her in front of her students whether she had been a victim of sexual abuse.

Here Ford's voice breaks again. There have been many humiliations that she has experienced. But not only: "Everything I feared has come true. Only that the reality is much worse." Ford reports constant harassment, threats and insults. Her personal details were published on the Internet and she and her family had to flee the house. Your work email has been hacked. "And now I have to relive my trauma in front of the whole world."

Ford made an extremely credible impression at their hearing. If Trump keeps his word to withdraw Kavanaugh's nomination - "should I think he is guilty" - then he would have to ditch Kavanaugh.